You might see me posting here about our trip this coming August. (Syempre fillers din). In a way I am excited because this is really my dream. And since Howell is getting his airfare and hotel for free, we find it as a great opportunity since we will save on the hotel and airfare. But I still feel GUILTY for leaving Bela.
We both agree that we don’t know when an opportunity like this will come and if we have more than 1 kid already, we are not sure if we can still afford a trip like this. Howell knows how much I am dreaming to go to Europe and he really convinced me to go. I am happy and I feel fortunate that an opportunity like this has come to us. I really didn’t even think that we will be able to fulfill our dream because I know there is no way we can afford a Euro Trip. Both Howell and I were laughing and we kept on saying how did it happen because never in our wildest dreams did we imagine that we will be able to go to Europe someday. Every time I see pictures of Europe, I just look in awe and wish that someday, if God permits, I will be able to see Europe.
Howell never really applied for a training in Germany. He applied for a training in Washington since a US trip is more feasible for us because we already have mileage to cover at least 2 airfare tickets, we have friends in LA and Florida where we can stay, and we already have our visas so this is a more realistic plan than a Europe trip. But the management decided to send Howell to Germany instead. My initial reaction was I was really excited but then when it sink in already, I realized that it will be impossible to bring Bela with us if I will be going. Firstly, it will be difficult to travel with a toddler when you’re backpacking, secondly I don’t think Bela will still appreciate it and thirdly, it will be more expensive if we will all go.
I was on my way home from work and I saw kids playing with their skateboard ramps and it made me really feel sad and guilty and it made me think about Bela despite my excitement for this trip. Sometimes I feel like I am being an irresponsible mom for leaving Bela. But I know she will still be in good hands since I will be leaving her with my mom.
But like what I said in Twitter, despite my emote mode, I am still going with Howell. (Am I weird or crazy for doing this?) At least I can spend some quality time with him (and hopefully we can have baby # 2). I am so worried about Bela but I think I am the one who will have separation anxiety when I leave her on the 6th.
We both agree that we don’t know when an opportunity like this will come and if we have more than 1 kid already, we are not sure if we can still afford a trip like this. Howell knows how much I am dreaming to go to Europe and he really convinced me to go. I am happy and I feel fortunate that an opportunity like this has come to us. I really didn’t even think that we will be able to fulfill our dream because I know there is no way we can afford a Euro Trip. Both Howell and I were laughing and we kept on saying how did it happen because never in our wildest dreams did we imagine that we will be able to go to Europe someday. Every time I see pictures of Europe, I just look in awe and wish that someday, if God permits, I will be able to see Europe.
Howell never really applied for a training in Germany. He applied for a training in Washington since a US trip is more feasible for us because we already have mileage to cover at least 2 airfare tickets, we have friends in LA and Florida where we can stay, and we already have our visas so this is a more realistic plan than a Europe trip. But the management decided to send Howell to Germany instead. My initial reaction was I was really excited but then when it sink in already, I realized that it will be impossible to bring Bela with us if I will be going. Firstly, it will be difficult to travel with a toddler when you’re backpacking, secondly I don’t think Bela will still appreciate it and thirdly, it will be more expensive if we will all go.
I was on my way home from work and I saw kids playing with their skateboard ramps and it made me really feel sad and guilty and it made me think about Bela despite my excitement for this trip. Sometimes I feel like I am being an irresponsible mom for leaving Bela. But I know she will still be in good hands since I will be leaving her with my mom.
But like what I said in Twitter, despite my emote mode, I am still going with Howell. (Am I weird or crazy for doing this?) At least I can spend some quality time with him (and hopefully we can have baby # 2). I am so worried about Bela but I think I am the one who will have separation anxiety when I leave her on the 6th.
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